Falling back in love

After a very successful and enjoyable meeting with my adviser, I have managed to change my major AND declare a minor. I am now officially a history major with a poly sci minor. Yay! I will be taking 2 courses through Pima this summer (online) and taking the CLEP examination for Spanish and hopefully by Fall, I will be back to my normal class!!! (Class of '11, May instead of December). My momma is happy about it.

I am so happy!! I have decided what I am going to do after graduation, but I don't want to jinx it. So I will not be sharing until it is a certainty!

My sister is moving to San Diego is August for law school at Cal Western... I am so torn about it. She's my best friend ever and she's going to be so far away. It is going to suck. And I am nervous. But at the the same time it will be good for her, and that means I will have an excuse to go to San Diego A LOT.

My living situation after May is so up in the air. I might move, might not. I am too nomadic to stay in a house for more than a year. So crazy!

I miss Mary and really, really want to get tattooed :(

Tom cut my hair like 2 weeks ago:

Oh how I love new crushes!! So fun. I think lately I have just been liking new things in general. I have been eating healthy and running regularly and feel sooo much happier. I really do think that your routine affects your happiness.

Life is wonderful. I am thinking of majoring in Geosciences. It depends on how my class (Geological disasters and society) goes, or Public Admin (like my sissy!). I feel like there are so many options. I just know I want a career where I can help people and it doesn't matter what I look like. Still searching for the perfect one, I guess!

The weather is freaking beautiful! I love the heat so much. My birthday is exactly 1 month and 7 days from today, I'm going to be 20!!!!! I feel like time is flying. Oh life.

I miss lots of friends. I will be in phoenix tomorrow for Gaslight Anthem! I hope to see familiar faces.

xo

1800

Hahahahahahahahaha. This picture speaks for itself. Best Friends Forever <3

Mason is the best at taking care of Lindsay and I.

4-17-09

Mary, this station is playing every sad song.
I remember like we were alive.
I heard it Sunday morn' from inside of these walls.
In a prison cell, where we spent those nights.
And they burnt up the diner where I always used to find her.
Licking young boys blood from her claws.
And I learned about the blues from this kitten I knew.
Her hair was rabid and her heart was like a tomb.
My heart's like a wound.

I saw tail lights last night in a dream about my first wife.
Everybody leaves and I'd expect as much from you.
I saw tail lights last night in a dream about my old life.
Everybody leaves, so why, why wouldn't you?

Mary, I worried and stalled every night of my life.
Better safe than making the party.
And I never had a good time, I sat my bedside,
With papers and poetry about Estella.
Great expectations, we had the greatest expectations.

I saw tail lights last night in a dream about my first wife.
Everybody leaves and I'd expect as much from you.
I saw tail lights last night in a dream about my old life.
Everybody leaves, so why, why wouldn't you?

It's funny how the night moves.
Humming a song from 1962.
We were always waiting...always waiting.
We were always waiting for something to happen.

I saw tail lights last night in a dream about my first wife.
Everybody leaves and I'd expect as much from you.
I saw tail lights last night in a dream about my old life.
Everybody leaves, so why, why wouldn't you?

Making Playlists...

So, while I was making a playlist to do my homework to, I realized that there isn't any song or band on my iTunes that isn't attached to a plethera of memories. Most of them are really good too!

It makes me miss how things used to be and how I used to spend my time. And most of all, how I used to get to visit my friends all the time.

Blahhh, the end of the semester is coming up so quickly and I am so nervous. I don't think my grades are very good, and I can't have that. I really need to focus these last few weeks.

I'm so excited about going to India. I just want it to happen NOW. I finally put in for my passport. I should receive it in 4-6 weeks, with the worst picture of me ever on it. Oh well.

Things I want to do in the near future (AKA before Fall '09):

Take Hindi/Bollywood dance lessons
Finish my neck/shoulders
Run more
Save money
Find a freaking bike already (I'm convinced the right one will come to meeeee!)
See friends
Redecorate my room
Chose a major
Do more charity/volunteer work

It's funny

The truth ALWAYS comes out. No matter how hard you try to hide it. And it's funny that people who are sketchy will always be sketchy. Despite all efforts to be legit, it never works.

People are really not that great these days. I'm just going to get all sketchy hahaha

I can wait until summer. Have to fill out paperwork for the county today.

Potential classes for Fall '09:
SOC260- Ethnic Relations and the US
WFSC225- Wildlife Conservation and Society
POL202- International Relations
INTS250- Intro to International Studies
HWR203- AZ Water Issues

Yah, can you tell I have NO idea what I want to change my major to??? haha

Been thinking a lot lately about the "what ifs?". Those suck. Also, wondering what life would be if the "what ifs" were real.

Sometimes too much thinking time is a curse. I need to get out of Arizona.

Graduation day feels a million years away.